I feel like there is something off in me lately. It all started with seeing the hanging of Saddam on tv. It made me ill. Not that I think highly of the man but to see ANYONE die...OMG! And then to see his body.... it horrified me and I can't seam to get it out of my mind. It's like the horrors he inflicted on all those innocent people are haunting my mind. The blood still fresh along his cheek from the nose bleed. The burn like mark abd stretched skin from his neck. His head flopping out of the shroud like a dead limp fish.... shudder. It literally get SERIOUSLY nauseated just thinking about it. Likw where you feel it on the back of your tounge and your mouth waters. It's horrid. I can't explain how it made me feel and why it still holds so much power over my emotions and spirit. It makes me think that there can't be a plan. There is no list to find the end of that can explain why I don't feel justified and like he had it comming and like that's the way it should have ended. I'm not saying it's not nor am I saying it is. I just know that 95% of people felt nothing. They saw it as justice and felt inside nothing. It scares me that people can see something so graphic, so real, so raw, and not realize it for the horror show that it is because of the person it is happening to. My step was finally telling someone. My act is to try to let it go or reason with it. The last time something in the news hit me SO emotionally harshly was the caneing of Michael Faye. I guess this just insistly proves I disagree with the death penalty if nothing else huh?? And how did you get so lucky as to live through reading this account of my raw feeling instilled by life and reality thus effecting my view of this particular poem?? Because I didn't want to think it was simply reflective of the shopping you two did the other day and wanted you to see it on my scale. Lots of prayers to the two of you. Keep posting the poems. They are making me feel better already...;)!
I am hoping to do that with John next month when I am there. Make a plan and step by step, get immigration done, so I can be there with him. It sounds easy, but there are things in the background that are making me think it's not going to go as smoothly.
I try to plan things out in all aspects of my life. Weight loss, vacations, budgets, all that sort of stuff. And I do fairly well. but this time, on this one thing, there is another person involved (John) and his planning skills aren't the same as mine. Maybe I am just worrying for no reason. *shakes head*
but once again, wonderful poem. Makes us all think.
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And for contingencies!
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Lots of prayers to the two of you. Keep posting the poems. They are making me feel better already...;)!
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But I'm glad you found something in it :)
**hugs**
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I am hoping to do that with John next month when I am there. Make a plan and step by step, get immigration done, so I can be there with him. It sounds easy, but there are things in the background that are making me think it's not going to go as smoothly.
I try to plan things out in all aspects of my life. Weight loss, vacations, budgets, all that sort of stuff. And I do fairly well. but this time, on this one thing, there is another person involved (John) and his planning skills aren't the same as mine. Maybe I am just worrying for no reason. *shakes head*
but once again, wonderful poem. Makes us all think.
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Thank you El!
Planning is a fun thing to do together, as I've learned :)
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