I would love to be able to give myself - body, mind and soul - to another person without the deathly fear that it will eventually end for some reason, and particularly that reason likely being something I've said or done.
For emotional reasons, i could never ever be abducted by aliens. It would be too harrowing an adventure and i would end up dying like a stressed out hamster.
I'd love to join some orgs this year in college, but I'm still kind of socially anxious after it didn't go so well in high school... (When I was in the same groups as people who were once were my friends but had moved on without me and it became awkward.) Kinda scared it'd happen again... D:
Sit down and have a major heart to heart with some friends. I have had this conversation before but it needs to be done again. However, it's just to emotionally draining to do it. They just don't get it really.
Oh yes. I am feeling read for a relationship which is something I've not felt for in years (about the last four to five years) because of school and work.
I'm graduating soon and I'll have more free time and in the meanwhile I started to check people out keeping in mind I'm ready, willing, and able!
I really want to learn Irish. But I seem to have a block in me somewhere about keeping it in my memory. I also want to marry again one day, but that is whole lot of other stuff I don't want to go into here since I don't know who will read my comments here, lol.
Feeling total love, opening up completely for someone who is more than a friend, someone I'm dating etc. Too much vulnerability and potential for hurt. I'm coming around verrrrry slowly tho.
(Oddly enough, I have no problems opening up enough to you as a relatively new LJ friend to tell you this, lol)
Hmmmm...well, since you ruled out financial or other constraints and are solely basing this question on emotional constraints...my answer is: HELL NO! I AM THE LIZARD KING! I CAN DO ANYTHING!!!*
Ya know, I thought about this on and off all day. And the answer is no. If there's something I'd like to do and it doesn't involve my finances, I just do it. I'm sure that sound arrogant, but I guess since I was a kid I saw the frailty of the human lifespan, and figured out, life's too short as it is.
OK, have a little piece of mercy on me because right now I am about to fall to pieces in frustration and smash my laptop through a window because of the hel from my job application process. Could you either point me to a place where I can translate what you just wrote or just tell me? Because I tried to do a search for Irish translations, and all I got was massive listings for places that will translate for a fee.
*cries*
Don't fuck with the brain of the distressed lass today. :(
Honestly, I wish I would just get life over with. I almost did once...long ago. The reason I stay is obvious, my little ones. But, that does not mean that some days, I want to die.
Talk about my feelings. My mom has made an appt with a psychoanalyst for when I return to Cali, because she and my father are tired of my refusal to grieve over things or talk about problems. Brad has apparently talked about with them and blah blah. I just don't want to bother anyone, and feel like I can take care of myself. I'm a psychologist, and there's a specific reason I went into that line of study. Anyway, that's my deal. I'm kind of annoyed at my mom. Heh.
Nothing is ever that bad. I know because I don't know you, I have no right to say that. But believe me when I say, I promise, nothing is ever that bad.
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Date: 2008-06-10 12:11 pm (UTC)I guess it has to be me, I keep thinking I'm ready. Then I think, maybe I'll wait a little longer.
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Date: 2008-06-10 12:17 pm (UTC)I'm graduating soon and I'll have more free time and in the meanwhile I started to check people out keeping in mind I'm ready, willing, and able!
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Date: 2008-06-10 04:09 pm (UTC)(Oddly enough, I have no problems opening up enough to you as a relatively new LJ friend to tell you this, lol)
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Date: 2008-06-10 07:29 pm (UTC)*Thank you, Jim Morrison
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Don't fuck with the brain of the distressed lass today. :(
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Date: 2008-06-10 10:14 pm (UTC)"Pleasantries", last words. Sorry hon, just tryin to blindly commiserate:)
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