A sharpener. Because in our house we have a stockpile of like 600 pencils. I had one sharpener. But I broke this morning. And apparently, it's the last one we had because there are NO MORE SHARPENERS. It's kind of maddening.
In a larger sense, though? I am searching for people that will be there. For me. And for me to be there for them. I'm looking for the "worthwhile ones".
Money would be nice too. It's annoying to feel like you work hard and still go nowhere or end up short on things. (Like now, my paycheck was great, but not enough as usual. $10 bucks short for rent. Siiiiiigh.)
At the moment, a new mother, as I think the old one (*cough pardon me* fucking bitch whore piece of shit miserable fat old witch!) is going to either disown me or give me some unprovoked lecture about what a piece of trash I am as soon as she comes home (whenever the hell that's going to be).
True, but it would be nice if I had someone to actually talk to about it.
Well, I do have my therapist, tomorrow, well, assuming bitchfuck mother is willing to let me in her precious car (oooOOOoooh! a 2004 Corollabox! isn't it amazing?) to drive me, the burden, to my therapy instead of telling me to take the flipping LIRR (on a Saturday morning, do you have any idea how long that takes?!?!? And it costs $8.50 each way/$14 roundtrip.) or just call because she knows what a lazy piece of shit I am and how I couldn't be on time somewhere if my life depended on it so I should just call and if I don't like that, I should fucking learn to drive myself at 24 other people my age getting married having kids having LIVES and I can't do anything but wait for her to drive me. (I know the punctuation disappeared. That's what my uterus-possessor mother sounds like. Bitch.)
But yeah, other than clinical friends (which, fucking shitbag mother is quick to remind me, she PAYS to deal with me), I ain't got nobody. Nobody cares for me, nobody, nobody, cares for me. I'm so sad and lonely, sad and lonely, sad and lonely, won't someone kill my damn momma and take a chance on me, even if I AM that bad? (/David Lee Roth)
well, at one time i was in search of "great love" (and as corny as that sounds that's what i was looking for), but i've found that... *deep sigh* so, now i guess i'm in search of ROOTS. I haven't been able to put down roots anywhere with Jimmy yet. Where we currently live is temporary since neither one of us wants to raise kids away from family (and both of our families are 8+ hours away). So, we're moving in the semi-near future, but we don't know when. The uncertainty is quite annoying/frustrating at times, but i know someday i'll be pregnant with Jimmy's children (hopefully not 2 at once), and we'll be happy wherever we end up... So, that's what i'm shooting for. /long rambling explanation
Why can't you find a pencil sharpener? Don't they have office supply stores where you live? (or you could order one from somewhere like Office Depot (http://www.officedepot.com/textSearch.do?uniqueSearchFlag=true&Ntt=pencil+sharpeners&cm_mmc=360i-_-Google-_-Pen_and_Paper-Pencil_Sharpener-_-pencil_sharpeners) or something)
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Date: 2008-08-29 10:02 am (UTC)In a larger sense, though? I am searching for people that will be there. For me. And for me to be there for them. I'm looking for the "worthwhile ones".
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Date: 2008-08-29 10:02 am (UTC)But I'm sure that's not what you meant :)
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Date: 2008-08-29 10:19 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-08-29 11:01 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-08-29 11:27 am (UTC)(also, for the kittens to stop trying to eat my toes.)
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Date: 2008-08-29 11:29 am (UTC)on a big grand scale.
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Date: 2008-08-29 11:36 am (UTC)inner peace. getting close, but still no cigar
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Date: 2008-08-29 11:59 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-08-29 12:09 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-08-29 12:37 pm (UTC)Money would be nice too. It's annoying to feel like you work hard and still go nowhere or end up short on things. (Like now, my paycheck was great, but not enough as usual. $10 bucks short for rent. Siiiiiigh.)
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Date: 2008-08-29 02:26 pm (UTC)That being said, I would like to be a master musician already. Bloody time and practice! Argh! ^__~
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Date: 2008-08-29 02:41 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-08-29 02:45 pm (UTC)MYSELF
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Date: 2008-08-29 03:14 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-08-29 04:34 pm (UTC)And if someone could email me the answers to my exams that would be awesome...
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Date: 2008-08-29 05:16 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-08-29 06:08 pm (UTC)And yes, I DID get the Marty Markowitz job!
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Date: 2008-08-29 06:11 pm (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2008-08-29 06:18 pm (UTC)Searching is so much different than taking...
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Date: 2008-08-29 06:21 pm (UTC)Well, I do have my therapist, tomorrow, well, assuming
bitchfuckmother is willing to let me in her precious car (oooOOOoooh! a 2004 Corollabox! isn't it amazing?) to drive me, the burden, to my therapy instead of telling me to take the flipping LIRR (on a Saturday morning, do you have any idea how long that takes?!?!? And it costs $8.50 each way/$14 roundtrip.) or just call because she knows what a lazy piece of shit I am and how I couldn't be on time somewhere if my life depended on it so I should just call and if I don't like that, I should fucking learn to drive myself at 24 other people my age getting married having kids having LIVES and I can't do anything but wait for her to drive me. (I know the punctuation disappeared. That's what myuterus-possessormother sounds like. Bitch.)But yeah, other than clinical friends (which,
fucking shitbagmother is quick to remind me, she PAYS to deal with me), I ain't got nobody. Nobody cares for me, nobody, nobody, cares for me. I'm so sad and lonely, sad and lonely, sad and lonely, won't someone kill my damn momma and take a chance on me, even if I AM that bad? (/David Lee Roth)(no subject)
Date: 2008-08-29 06:26 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-08-29 06:40 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-08-29 07:46 pm (UTC)2. A hot book of poetry that my daughter wants to borrow.
3. All the love in the world.
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Date: 2008-08-29 07:47 pm (UTC)♥
*confused*
Date: 2008-08-29 08:19 pm (UTC)♥
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Date: 2008-08-29 09:28 pm (UTC)~Someone to love who will love me back unconditionally.
~Inner peace and contentment
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Date: 2008-08-30 12:20 am (UTC)Oh, and maybe love, too. ;)
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Date: 2008-08-30 03:36 am (UTC)Re: *confused*
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