and as odd as this might sound, one or more of the people I write out (Craimar, oddly enough) might just, well, come and sort of just hang around in my head. They won't say anything but just knowing *someone* (some being) is there...
Yeah.
If none of my people are around, and yes that does happen every so often, (And I should probably reverse this) I go to the Goddess. (yup, Goddess. :d) Who sometimes shows up anyway, so there we go.
It depends on the thing. Sometimes my mom. Sometimes LJ. Sometimes J. Sometimes co-workers. Sometimes the outdoors. Ask me sometime about my gratitude list (too personal to post for your audience, sorry). That's the one thing that seems to help me the very most.
It depends on the situation. There are times I require alone time. Most often than not, I tend to gravitate toward my family and close friends. The good energy and love has helped me go through the difficulties of life. I'm better for it, I grow and I'm stronger.
My parents and within myself. I'm scared sh*tless about what I'll do when my parents pass away. Financially I'm okay on my own, but emotionally I need them.
I usually dig deep within myself to find that last bit of "in your face" to get me through. This is not to say I don't look to others (*blows a kiss to you*), but you know how I am...I'll muck through it myself first. It's just the way I've always been since I can remember.
The Pattern of Existence, because everything runs in patterns in the Universe - why shouldn't the web of our lives not be the same.
And if I'm too angry or disgusted with the Powers-That-Be, then after a catharsis of ranting and raging, I calm down and remember that I still have my face (no chimps ripped off my jaw, pulled out my eyes or bit off my nose - and I didn't have to survive it) and I am not the Indian 'tree dude' (I don't have benign growths that make my life a living hell growing all over my body).
From that perspective, what the fuck do I have to complain about?
That would be really bad. When I'm pissed I either suck at fighting because I'm too distracted by what is pissing me off, or I'm in berserk mode and somewhat deadly.
I like to meet my friends in combat in the spirit of anime honour. I'll only use 30% of my power until you whack me on the skull... then I'll go up to 50%! ^___~
Sometimes it's within myself to hold on a little but longer, sometimes it's my deities, sometimes it's Greg, sometimes it's LJ, sometimes it's a friend, sometimes it's the dog or the cats and sometimes I just cry and rant and to hell with it all.
And then other times someone reaches out to me before I know I need it and everything looks a little bit brighter.
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Date: 2009-03-05 01:08 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 01:09 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 01:13 pm (UTC)And sometimes I just curl up and cry.
Or write.
Or...
and as odd as this might sound, one or more of the people I write out (Craimar, oddly enough) might just, well, come and sort of just hang around in my head. They won't say anything but just knowing *someone* (some being) is there...
Yeah.
If none of my people are around, and yes that does happen every so often, (And I should probably reverse this) I go to the Goddess. (yup, Goddess. :d) Who sometimes shows up anyway, so there we go.
the Phoenix
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Date: 2009-03-05 01:16 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 01:19 pm (UTC)...and somewhere in there, I'll just have a good long cry.
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Date: 2009-03-05 01:21 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 01:22 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 01:22 pm (UTC)lately, friends or no one at all..
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Date: 2009-03-05 01:25 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 01:45 pm (UTC)But when it comes to "human folks": My husband, my family & a couple of my close friends.
♥
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Date: 2009-03-05 01:58 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 02:08 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 02:19 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 02:20 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 02:37 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 02:56 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 03:03 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 03:09 pm (UTC)And if I'm too angry or disgusted with the Powers-That-Be, then after a catharsis of ranting and raging, I calm down and remember that I still have my face (no chimps ripped off my jaw, pulled out my eyes or bit off my nose - and I didn't have to survive it) and I am not the Indian 'tree dude' (I don't have benign growths that make my life a living hell growing all over my body).
From that perspective, what the fuck do I have to complain about?
(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 04:03 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 04:06 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 04:08 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 04:15 pm (UTC)I like to meet my friends in combat in the spirit of anime honour. I'll only use 30% of my power until you whack me on the skull... then I'll go up to 50%! ^___~
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Date: 2009-03-05 04:20 pm (UTC)Sometimes it's within myself to hold on a little but longer, sometimes it's my deities, sometimes it's Greg, sometimes it's LJ, sometimes it's a friend, sometimes it's the dog or the cats and sometimes I just cry and rant and to hell with it all.
And then other times someone reaches out to me before I know I need it and everything looks a little bit brighter.
(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 04:55 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 05:11 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 05:12 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 05:46 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 05:55 pm (UTC)While I love my family (and they me), they tend to be last because I'm the odd duck of the family and they don't always "get" me.
(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 06:02 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 06:52 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-05 09:05 pm (UTC)"How the hell do you wake up in the mornings?"
Simple. First, I search myself for the strength. If it is not enough, I think of my gods.
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Date: 2009-03-06 12:10 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-06 03:15 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-06 08:15 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-06 10:58 pm (UTC)don't know what that says.
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Date: 2009-03-07 12:54 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-07 01:41 pm (UTC)