I just load up on the false bravado. I'm good at that. Most people would be shocked to know I'm a very nervous person. I'm told I can quite intimidating, but really if you're mean to me I'll cry. Hard and cynical on the outside, softy and sweet on the inside.
Pretend. It's kind of "fake it till you feel it" thing for me. If I admit my nervousness to myself, it starts to feed on me and it's a downward spiral from there. It shows when I'm nervous too, so that can affect my interactions with other people.
I scream, vomit violently, carve mandalas and mantras in Sanskrit into my chest with a hunting knife and call everyone I truly love a bunch of total fucking drama-whores; then I sulk, sitting on the toilet in nothing but a bath robe and brown socks, drinking the cheapest vodka I can find (you know, the type in the 3-liter plastic jugs) and call up ex-es on the phone and hang up while sobbing.
You know. What anyone else subjected to the Bush administration would do.
Kidding. I just walk in and observe before saying anything.
I don't get nervous. One of the great skills learned while temping for a couple of years - a high learning curve and a good grasp of the job within the first day. No real time or reason to be nervous. :D
I...take a big deep breath, sniff the armpits, check out my ass, and make a silly face in the mirror. Then i state that i'm Queen of the Universe and this high-strung nervousness thing is just an overlap from my peasant days.
I always check out women's asses. It's a source of amusement when my eyes land upon a rather large one, especially if her waist is small. Just like Sir Mix-A-Lot likes. ^_^
I'm very, very fluttery and sick to my tummy until I get wherever I'm going. Then... it poofs and I end up overcompensating by being bubbly and perky and it boggles minds. [laugh]
The only thing I'm nervous about is getting there on time. Other than that, I just be myself, watch my Ps and Qs until I get a 'feel' for the place, and ask questions if I don't understand something.
I just push my way through. I mean how else can you really handle it? It's not like you can go into work drunk. And since "first days" are always intensely overwhelming for me, I just learned to deal. Then after, I'm like, "That wasn't so bad."
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Date: 2008-03-05 12:03 pm (UTC)You know. What anyone else subjected to the Bush administration would do.
Kidding. I just walk in and observe before saying anything.
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Date: 2008-03-05 01:33 pm (UTC)*hugs*
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Date: 2008-03-05 02:07 pm (UTC)Yup. :)
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Date: 2008-03-05 02:19 pm (UTC)My bisexuality is quite moody.
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Date: 2008-03-05 05:03 pm (UTC)I am ALwAYS nervous..
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Date: 2008-07-14 03:50 pm (UTC)Yeah, I'm nervous until I step into the door...