Whenever I have to stand up for my beliefs and what's right for me: through marriage at an early age & the divorce that followed, raising a child on my own, helping my parents with my father, taking care of myself at work, and learning that sometimes I deserve things, too (like alone time, or a new toy, or dinner out with adults).
That's easy! When I've had to convince those I care about to do the right thing when we both knew it was difficult and contrary to our nature. Examples include convincing a friend of mine that he needed to see a shrink and to go on meds and affirming mom's and my sister's decision to end life support for my dad when he started to go into renal failure.
It's times like those when you truly come to know your worth. It's probably no small contribution to my arrogance, but I have no regrets.
Selling everything,leaving everyone I know and love (boyfriend and cats included) behind, and coming to a foreign country where I don't speak the language or know anyone to pursue a life long dream.
Three times in my life I found I had more strength than I ever knew I had in me: my divorce, getting out of abuse, and grad school. Not sure which one required the most strength because the experiences were all so different. Grad school was the longest and the one I felt the most alone through though. And it required me to bend the space/time continuum a few times. ;D
Honestly when I have wanted to hurt myself... when my level of hopelessness grew so strong that I wished to no longer be here. Every now and again I get those old feelings and I know that I have to be strong and fight them.
Ohhh, this is an easy one.... it was when my father passed away. I had to be strong for my mother, sister, niece and nephew! It was the toughest time in my life but also an eye opener as well.
Before September, I would have said when my dad passed away. Since September, I realize the answer is more challenging than that. Everyday of the past twelve and a half years have been their own brand of hell, but these past seven+ months have been terrorizing. So, pretty much right now.
It can be when we're talking about her problems and possible future operations and things that involve her illness. I try not to get upset or worry when I'm around her. I love making her laugh, we have such a girlie time that I don't want her thinking about the bad things.
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Date: 2008-05-08 11:50 am (UTC)I guess when I choose to be me. ;)
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Date: 2008-05-08 11:51 am (UTC)It's times like those when you truly come to know your worth. It's probably no small contribution to my arrogance, but I have no regrets.
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Date: 2008-05-08 12:57 pm (UTC)Leaving the cats was the worst part of that.
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Date: 2008-05-08 02:39 pm (UTC)I probably need to be strongest at work, where I often have to manage the business and multitask like mad.
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Date: 2008-05-08 03:05 pm (UTC)'Nuff said.
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