I don't really want to be normal, in the mundane sense. I would like the ability to pretend to be normal and have others buy into it for a limited time so that I can observe and participate in social interaction without stress.
As a social chameleon, I would like more control over what shade I turn and how long I get to wear it.
The best way to act normal, or so I've found, is to let other people dominate the conversation. They are usually so busy applauding themselves for being important/smart/cool that they fail to notice their audience. (And the audience is usually thinking: "What do I want to eat next?" "Does my ass look fat in these pants?" "How long is this guy going to drone on?" "When I get home, I need to do all these things..." "Whoa! Hot chick... I wanna get laid!")
There is something to be said for a well-timed statement that suddenly blows the main speaker out of the water and shifts the attention for a minute. Pulls people out of their personal gravity in order to make them think and re-evaluate.
Which is your preferred modus operandi, is it not? ^___^
That's what all we tricksters strive for, no? On a serious note, though, I know where you're coming from. I feel the same way sometimes, believe it or not.
Lots of normal people wish they were special, and lots of abnormal people just want to exist without discrimination. The grass is always greener over the septic tank.
Well said. I've long been someone who is a walking ball of intimidation. Some of this has to do with my size and my appearance, but most of it comes from my history, and the attitude I developed. I was a bouncer, for a time, but even before that I had somehow developed the walk and mannerisms not of one who walks into a place like they own it, but like someone who walks into the place not giving a shit who owns it. If that makes sense. So much of it is just that I have a lot of presence. There is more Tucker than Tucker is able to contain, kind of thing. Even if I am not the biggest person in the group, I still give the impression that I am. This is something I am happy with, as it has kept myself and my friends out of many a fight. I don't like fighting, because I don't like getting hit.
However, if there was one thing that I could wish for as far as "normalcy", it would be that I wouldn't strike fear into women the way I do with men.
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Date: 2008-10-08 02:24 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-10-08 03:19 pm (UTC)so please, don't struggle, let your uniqueness be
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Date: 2008-10-08 04:28 pm (UTC)As a social chameleon, I would like more control over what shade I turn and how long I get to wear it.
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Date: 2008-10-08 04:45 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-10-08 08:32 pm (UTC)It's easy enough for me to do :D
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Date: 2008-10-09 05:07 pm (UTC)There is something to be said for a well-timed statement that suddenly blows the main speaker out of the water and shifts the attention for a minute. Pulls people out of their personal gravity in order to make them think and re-evaluate.
Which is your preferred modus operandi, is it not? ^___^
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Date: 2008-10-09 08:20 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-10-08 03:36 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-10-08 04:23 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-10-08 06:34 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-10-08 07:36 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-10-08 08:08 pm (UTC)Of course, that just leads us to the tedious debate of the definition of "normal", but you get what I am driving at.
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Date: 2008-10-09 04:56 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-10-09 09:10 pm (UTC)I've long been someone who is a walking ball of intimidation. Some of this has to do with my size and my appearance, but most of it comes from my history, and the attitude I developed. I was a bouncer, for a time, but even before that I had somehow developed the walk and mannerisms not of one who walks into a place like they own it, but like someone who walks into the place not giving a shit who owns it. If that makes sense.
So much of it is just that I have a lot of presence. There is more Tucker than Tucker is able to contain, kind of thing. Even if I am not the biggest person in the group, I still give the impression that I am.
This is something I am happy with, as it has kept myself and my friends out of many a fight. I don't like fighting, because I don't like getting hit.
However, if there was one thing that I could wish for as far as "normalcy", it would be that I wouldn't strike fear into women the way I do with men.