Somedays, so much I don't know where to start. Others, nothing at all. I guess I just want balance and don't know how to do it. I try, but seems no one else wants to try with me.
A couple of things, but then there's this nagging question in the back of my head that asks if these changes were to occur, would they bring about peace in my life, or just a whole new set of problems. And, if it does bring about a whole new set of problems, will these problems be worth the changes made in the first place. That, of course, would all depend on how badly one really wants that change to begin with.
What I do for a living would be first and foremost, because I certainly don't want to do this forever. I have a lot of dreams...it's just finding the courage to make them happen...
Overall I'm pretty fortunate, and to change or ask for more would just be greedy of me.
The one thing I would like to have more freedom to change would be my work... I would like to find something that sparks a passion within me. I'm working on changing that, but it's going to take some time as I do need an income. =)
edit: Looks like work is a common theme in the responses.
If I could travel back in time, I wouldn't buy my car (even though I like it). I was going to wait a year, and instead I bought a new car in November. I am suffering major regret on that front because my budget is near to busted.. not fun.
And to be debt free would be a nice change, but the word change implies I will have to make an effort to make it happen.. and I already am making much effort on getting myself debt free. =)
The things I'm already changing (getting a higher degree, balancing my M.E. with getting back to work, being more myself - complete with faults and fat).
One change I'd love to make would be getting Dave and I the hell out of this hotel and into a house where we can make the rules - you have no idea how appealing the freedom to change the ISP or electricity provider is to me right now...even if I didn't actually want to, it's just knowing we don't have the freedom to here that pisses me off.
But that's in the long-term future...Dave's parents aren't going to be selling up for quite some time, so I guess the change for the short term is learning to live with it.
Lots of things, and I enjoy deluding myself that I'm actually on track in making those changes happen.
Well, the truth is that I'm in the middle of everything, and that's where I tend to get bogged down. But, in personal history, once I get through the bottlenecks, things usually turn out.
1. I want to lose weight. I feel happier about myself and more alive when i'm thinner. 2. I really really want to move and live in a house and have a place to "put down roots". I've been living in "transition" for a long time. 3. I want to have children. This desire has been burning for a while, but it's intensifying...
...lose weight, finally get my student loan either paid off or written off, move into a new place, work towards getting over some personal issues, to get (legally) married to Bri.
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Date: 2009-02-04 01:32 pm (UTC)this line of thinking may have alot to do with me making the same mistakes over and over and over again..lol.
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Date: 2009-02-04 01:35 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-02-04 01:56 pm (UTC)*perplexed look*
Date: 2009-02-04 01:58 pm (UTC)The better question to ask, in my opinion, is "Why aren't you making the changes you've been wanting to do?"
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Date: 2009-02-04 01:59 pm (UTC)Overall I'm pretty fortunate, and to change or ask for more would just be greedy of me.
The one thing I would like to have more freedom to change would be my work... I would like to find something that sparks a passion within me. I'm working on changing that, but it's going to take some time as I do need an income. =)
edit: Looks like work is a common theme in the responses.
If I could travel back in time, I wouldn't buy my car (even though I like it). I was going to wait a year, and instead I bought a new car in November. I am suffering major regret on that front because my budget is near to busted.. not fun.
And to be debt free would be a nice change, but the word change implies I will have to make an effort to make it happen.. and I already am making much effort on getting myself debt free. =)
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Date: 2009-02-04 02:33 pm (UTC)One change I'd love to make would be getting Dave and I the hell out of this hotel and into a house where we can make the rules - you have no idea how appealing the freedom to change the ISP or electricity provider is to me right now...even if I didn't actually want to, it's just knowing we don't have the freedom to here that pisses me off.
But that's in the long-term future...Dave's parents aren't going to be selling up for quite some time, so I guess the change for the short term is learning to live with it.
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Date: 2009-02-04 03:20 pm (UTC)i'll start with getting to bed earlier though, so i can get up earlier. :)
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Date: 2009-02-04 03:52 pm (UTC)Well, the truth is that I'm in the middle of everything, and that's where I tend to get bogged down. But, in personal history, once I get through the bottlenecks, things usually turn out.
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Date: 2009-02-04 03:59 pm (UTC)Sorry, I must be cryptic.
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Date: 2009-02-04 04:23 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-02-04 05:04 pm (UTC)2. I really really want to move and live in a house and have a place to "put down roots". I've been living in "transition" for a long time.
3. I want to have children. This desire has been burning for a while, but it's intensifying...
♥
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Date: 2009-02-04 07:14 pm (UTC)It changes enough on its own without me trying. =)
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Date: 2009-02-04 07:16 pm (UTC)and to quit getting sick every 5 minutes..
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Date: 2009-02-04 08:24 pm (UTC)I thought you were on hiatus, btw?
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Date: 2009-02-04 11:16 pm (UTC)I would like to...
Hugs. *HG*
God bless and take care. :).
Olga/Maddie
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Date: 2009-02-05 05:53 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-02-06 06:33 am (UTC)-the college i go to
-my long distance relationship
-my mother's physical condition