the night i lost my virginity i can remember getting the man i was with to strangle me. he was highly experienced but had never done this before. i got off on the act AND seeing him both so excited and so concerned for my safety. ever since if i don't get choked, i might as well be wanking.
its never been too much. he usually chickened out and tried to get me into gentle sex. but yeah, gentle doesnt do it for me. throttle me, beat me, kill me...i'll be putty.
the long answer: being able to trust someone so much that you literally put your life in their hands...being able to know that if they chose, you COULD be dead...but knowing they love you and never would kill you...it's the greatest turn-on for me. when they scratch or bite you hard enough to bleed, it's like they're marking their territory- i have a scar this man left on my thigh which is two years old, and seeing it takes me back there. losing control, in this context, is the greatest control you can have.
the short answer: i like pain. plus, i have a reputation for being the sweetest, kindest girl you could ever meet. it's nice letting people think you're a giggly little fool in bed when you could eat them for breakfast.
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Date: 2006-01-27 02:48 pm (UTC)the short answer: i like pain. plus, i have a reputation for being the sweetest, kindest girl you could ever meet. it's nice letting people think you're a giggly little fool in bed when you could eat them for breakfast.
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