on the deep level, i fear never feeling secure. i value security deeply, and if i didn't know i had that, i'd be screwed up. on an everyday level, dogs. unnecessarily loud, noisy and drooly things, i can't bear being around them because i'm always waiting on them to bark or go for me.
I fear my inaction, never taking the step I must to have the life I know I can have, want to have and deserve to have.
Within this fear lays a challenge which then ensures I WILL take this step. As a child I learned if you take your fear and face it, there is a huge reward for this - no more fear. I have lived this way all my life. Some fears take longer to face, but I face them all eventually, even the irrational ones. *hopeful smile*
I am literally afraid of the dark. I MUST sleep with some sort of light on. When there is complete darkness I almost hyperventilate. I have been known to drop to the ground and lay in a fetal postition until someone turns on a light. I know.. I am weird.
Hmm.. I have a lot of fears, really. I am not ashamed to admit it. I just happen to over come them, or at least try.
I think I would have to say that my biggest fear is not being there. Not being able to fix something that needs to be fixed. Or save someone or something that needs to be saved. Growing up as I did, Always taking care of my handicapped Brother, I always feel that if I am not there when something happens, I failed in some way.
Watching "The Grudge," "White Noise," "The Excorcist III" or any movie where ghosts or bad-stuff is filmed in reverse walking backwards, so that when the film is run forwards, the subject looks like they're walking forward weirdly. That really messes with me! CREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPY! EW!
Snakes, particularly 'Water Moccasins', something happening to my daughter, the government. Not doing enough to help others, I feel very responsible for meeting the needs of my loved ones. Dying before what I am here for is done.
Clowns, hypodermic needles and being alone (not solitude, which is quite a different thing). Cancer and diabetes (neither is a hereditary risk, thank goodness, but I am petrified of both anyway). Also hurting people (I do this by accident all the time, and I'm really worried that one day I'll do permanent damage to someone out of thoughtlessness). I used to be afraid of semi-colons, but we've made our peace, and get along famously, now.
Right now, I fear that my emotional eating won't stop. I need to get back on track of things because the weight gain is affecting my self esteem. Not to mention that my suits really don't fit right now so I need to step back into taking care of me.
I fear that my happiness may end. Things have been going so well in my life. I just pray to God, my angels and saints, and ask that I have the strength for whatever comes my way.
It's been nice reading your posts again! Thank you!
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Date: 2006-04-11 08:58 am (UTC)on an everyday level, dogs. unnecessarily loud, noisy and drooly things, i can't bear being around them because i'm always waiting on them to bark or go for me.
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Date: 2006-04-11 09:46 am (UTC)Within this fear lays a challenge which then ensures I WILL take this step. As a child I learned if you take your fear and face it, there is a huge reward for this - no more fear. I have lived this way all my life. Some fears take longer to face, but I face them all eventually, even the irrational ones. *hopeful smile*
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Date: 2006-04-11 09:56 am (UTC)I wonder why that is?
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Date: 2006-04-11 12:17 pm (UTC)Fish.... shivers*
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Date: 2006-04-11 12:23 pm (UTC)getting a flat tire while doing 70mph on
the highway.
*hugs*
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Date: 2006-04-11 01:44 pm (UTC)I hate silence...
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Date: 2006-04-11 01:00 pm (UTC)I think I would have to say that my biggest fear is not being there. Not being able to fix something that needs to be fixed. Or save someone or something that needs to be saved. Growing up as I did, Always taking care of my handicapped Brother, I always feel that if I am not there when something happens, I failed in some way.
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Date: 2006-04-11 01:45 pm (UTC)The worst kind of fear...
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Date: 2006-04-11 02:19 pm (UTC)I fear not being loved.
I fear losing everything I care about.
I fear fears.
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Date: 2006-04-11 07:14 pm (UTC)I fear that my happiness may end. Things have been going so well in my life. I just pray to God, my angels and saints, and ask that I have the strength for whatever comes my way.
It's been nice reading your posts again! Thank you!
*CHEERS*
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Date: 2006-04-11 07:53 pm (UTC)You have strength... and any I can lend is yours too...
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