It's good to think that way Nate and I wish I was so inclined as well. Too many years brought up to believe failure is just that and there is no excuse for failure. That's why I am a perfectionist. There was no other way to be for me growing up. A mistake growing up for me had serious reprecussions. My mother was not tolerant of mistakes.
I'm sorry your mother instilled those values in you. A person could waste a lot of time condemning themselves for their "mistakes". There is one saving grace to your personality, so far as I know. And that's that you don't ever seem to give up. Am I right?
I find I can't give up. I'm not programmed that way. It's a blessing and a curse at the same time. But you know what Nate, I'd rather be like this, then someone who gives up way too easily and too soon.
Oh and by the way, I didn't always have the outlook I try to uphold today. It took a lot of psychological deprogramming to uproot and revalue all the values I was taught growing up.
Maybe one day I too will be less hard and harsh on myself and be able to make a mistake without thinking my world will start falling apart because of it.
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Date: 2006-04-12 11:44 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2006-04-12 12:01 pm (UTC)There is one saving grace to your personality, so far as I know. And that's that you don't ever seem to give up. Am I right?
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Date: 2006-04-12 12:09 pm (UTC):)
P.S.
Date: 2006-04-12 12:03 pm (UTC)Re: P.S.
Date: 2006-04-12 12:12 pm (UTC)*hugs*
Re: P.S.
Date: 2006-04-12 12:14 pm (UTC)*hugs tight*
Re: P.S.
Date: 2006-04-12 12:15 pm (UTC)*hug*
Re: P.S.
Date: 2006-04-12 12:17 pm (UTC)*hug*
And I know you can always come through anything baby...
Re: P.S.
Date: 2006-04-13 02:57 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2006-04-12 01:22 pm (UTC)I can identify with that...