Not usually. What I hide is the conflict IN my feelings. I don't feel comfortable with it. . . and I often get very quiet until I can work the conflict out.
Sometimes I find myself pressing the feelings away from me . .. can't hide what I am not aware of. . . sort of thing. I find that a lot when I think about Joe's death. That is incredibly painful, even now. . . and I push it away in order to deal with my day to day life.
Most of the time my emotions are out there for everyone to see... but yeah, there are times when what I'm feeling or who I'm feeling it about really doesn't need to be seen, you know?
Yeah, especially feelings that I think will make me vunerable to whatever. It's an old defense mechanism that was necessary for survival in my younger days, but is a devil of a habit to break now. I am much more "open" than I was when you and I first met here on LJ, but I still have a way to go.
Nope. I'm an open book. I don't think I'm capable of hiding anything anymore.
Besides, so many years and so many dollars in therapy learning to deal with my stuff... my feelings are excellent guideposts as to where I'm at and I'm learning to adjust them to assist me in where I wanna be!
I guess it all depends on the person - if I love, trust them to understand what I'm communicating, then I will reveal myself.
But more often than not, I feel like I don't want to burden them, I don't trust them completely, if I do communicate, they won't understand or I simply don't want to let them 'in'. It all varies on the situation and person.
My exterior though? I come across as a very happy, content, put together person who's confident with life because I have it ALL. =) People make the mistake of thinking I'm an open book because I show that side of me to them. I mean, it's a very real part of me but that's not ALL of me.
No. I'm blunt about how I feel and what I think. Even sometimes when I know it might be easier and/or better for me to NOT be so open or quite so brutally honest.
Only when exposing said feelings will interfere with something that I want to get done. And usually any open show of emotion has some risk of vulnerability involved, so I have a habit of remaining stoic in public situations. In personal environments or alone, however, I have little problem with it, except when I myself am afraid or uncomfortable with my own emotions.
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Date: 2006-12-05 10:16 am (UTC)Sometimes I find myself pressing the feelings away from me . .. can't hide what I am not aware of. . . sort of thing. I find that a lot when I think about Joe's death. That is incredibly painful, even now. . . and I push it away in order to deal with my day to day life.
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Date: 2006-12-05 10:18 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2006-12-05 10:23 am (UTC)I think I do at times - and at others, I'm completely incapable of doing so.
I'm sure I must - but not as a concious thing.
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Date: 2006-12-05 11:21 am (UTC)*hugs*
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Date: 2006-12-05 01:04 pm (UTC)Otherwise nothing....especially today with pms and being grumpy!!!
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Date: 2006-12-05 01:31 pm (UTC)I'm an open book.
Do you?
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Date: 2006-12-05 06:04 pm (UTC)Feelings
Date: 2006-12-05 07:52 pm (UTC)Besides, so many years and so many dollars in therapy learning to deal with my stuff... my feelings are excellent guideposts as to where I'm at and I'm learning to adjust them to assist me in where I wanna be!
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Date: 2006-12-05 08:49 pm (UTC)I guess it all depends on the person - if I love, trust them to understand what I'm communicating, then I will reveal myself.
But more often than not, I feel like I don't want to burden them, I don't trust them completely, if I do communicate, they won't understand or I simply don't want to let them 'in'. It all varies on the situation and person.
My exterior though? I come across as a very happy, content, put together person who's confident with life because I have it ALL. =) People make the mistake of thinking I'm an open book because I show that side of me to them. I mean, it's a very real part of me but that's not ALL of me.
P.S. Don't tell anyone I told you though, ok? ;)
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