Not usually. What I hide is the conflict IN my feelings. I don't feel comfortable with it. . . and I often get very quiet until I can work the conflict out.
Sometimes I find myself pressing the feelings away from me . .. can't hide what I am not aware of. . . sort of thing. I find that a lot when I think about Joe's death. That is incredibly painful, even now. . . and I push it away in order to deal with my day to day life.
I can understand that... I deny conflicting emotions after making a choice, but they always come back, in one way or another, which is something I'm discovering... Conflicts need to be worked out rather than ignored...
I remember a conversation we had a long time ago about this. . .LoL. . something about following (my) heart.
I think I remember telling you that I didn't trust my heart, that the heart lies.
pft.
yes. Conflicts need to be worked out. And I'm finding that two directly opposing choices where neither fits is not the time to make the choice. I need more choices that fit what I need. I don't have them, yet.
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Date: 2006-12-05 10:16 am (UTC)Sometimes I find myself pressing the feelings away from me . .. can't hide what I am not aware of. . . sort of thing. I find that a lot when I think about Joe's death. That is incredibly painful, even now. . . and I push it away in order to deal with my day to day life.
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Date: 2006-12-07 10:16 am (UTC)I love you...
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Date: 2006-12-07 12:35 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2006-12-07 01:43 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2006-12-07 01:46 pm (UTC)I think I remember telling you that I didn't trust my heart, that the heart lies.
pft.
yes. Conflicts need to be worked out. And I'm finding that two directly opposing choices where neither fits is not the time to make the choice. I need more choices that fit what I need. I don't have them, yet.
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Date: 2006-12-07 03:05 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2006-12-08 10:43 am (UTC)