I believe we all change, that it is impossible not to change, or as I call it grow. I am not overly happy with the direction I have grown into, so I am working on making major changes to alter this and get back to the core of who I am.
I have changed dramatically over the last five years and am still going through quite a tumultous transformation. I will forever be tickled that i'm no longer the shy, sheltered, and unmolded girl i used to be. (Goodness, it was horrible.) And it is all thanks to changing my environment; moving from Utah to Wisconsin. :)
Well, jeez, where to start... About three inches taller, fifteen pounds heavier, oh, and I'm no longer a high-school nerd who couldn't get a date to save my life. Now I'm a stay-at-home nerd who can't get a date to save my life.
I no longer play video games on the computer until the wee hours in the morning. Instead, I post on livejournal until the wee hours of the morning.
I no longer make references to music lyrics which no one understands; you see, I like all the pretty songs I like to sing along and I like to shoot my gun, but I don't mind what it means (Nirvana - In Bloom...see, now I tell people what song it is).
I no longer wear shorts regardless of the weather; I wear pants regardless of the weather (that's short pants and trousers for you Tories...I think...you guys are still Tories aren't you?).
I did mention the date thing, didn't I? ...yeah? Okay, I'm going to go sit in a dark corner and cry...about something else... I'm just kidding... I'll bottle it up inside and wait for it to explode like the manly man I am...
oh yes indeed, none of it good, i think i have just got more and more depressed in the last 5 years, although hopefully im coming out the other side now.
I know I've changed in the past five years. For example: - I've calmed down a lot (Especially in the last 3 years) - I'm more focused - I'm more willing to listen before voicing my opinion - I've learned to stifle my opinion until it's asked for - I'm less trusting - I'm more dedicated to things/people I feel are worth my time - I'm way more pragmatic - I think more in the 'long-term' than the 'right now' just to name a few
OMG yes... I mean, there are few ways I haven't changed in the last five years. It's been crazy. hehe The biggest way being I'm a lot more adult. I can hold a job, pay bills, plan ahead. I understand now that I need to do things before I do the things I want. And I'm a lot less psychotic. [laugh]
Well, if you don't count the werewolf thing that only happens a few times a year, I guess I'm still the same old crabbass I was five years ago. So the answer's no I suppose:)
I've changed drastically but in ways too numerous to count and - most of them - too private to post. The easiest and more public: I've held both the job from hell and (now) the job from heaven. Oh, and I had my third daughter in that time. The rest? Too private. :)
Another brain stimulating question. Most definitely yes I have and in so many ways. I think the thing that stands out the most is my attitude and outlook on life. I hope that they have matured, I believe they have. I am not as angry nor do I explode as frequently. My vision tainted from my mental illness has sharpened and resulted in a strength that carries me through. By no means am I better but in five years time there has been noticeable changes. I feel okay to be me, to show my true colors. I also do not feel the need to always have a sob story to tell, my pain I carry with me daily can be silent and I can smile. It's allowed now and in a much different way then the front I used to put up. Perhaps this sounds silly, I am trying to just type and think less lately.
In those 5 years I did about 3 of therapy...so yeah...I think I've changed...I've become more in tune with my emotions...and I've learned how to grieve (these were KEY!)
5 years ago i was 11. wow...ive changed, but unfortunately for the worse. i used to be so innocent, never full of rage or anger, and no sexual thoughts ever flowed through my mind as they do now. i was religious, believed in god, never contemplated suicide...i wish i were 11 years old again.
I think I've changed. I have more control on my emotions. I'm less unpredictable. I'm more giving, a lot less selfish. I've matured quite a bit and I tend to look more on the positive side of life.
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Date: 2007-08-08 10:44 am (UTC)Wow...
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Heh... I was in Wisconsin last year... :D
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Date: 2007-08-08 10:12 am (UTC)I no longer play video games on the computer until the wee hours in the morning. Instead, I post on livejournal until the wee hours of the morning.
I no longer make references to music lyrics which no one understands; you see, I like all the pretty songs I like to sing along and I like to shoot my gun, but I don't mind what it means (Nirvana - In Bloom...see, now I tell people what song it is).
I no longer wear shorts regardless of the weather; I wear pants regardless of the weather (that's short pants and trousers for you Tories...I think...you guys are still Tories aren't you?).
I did mention the date thing, didn't I? ...yeah? Okay, I'm going to go sit in a dark corner and cry...about something else... I'm just kidding... I'll bottle it up inside and wait for it to explode like the manly man I am...
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Date: 2007-08-08 10:47 am (UTC)Yeah, we're still Tories, even though they call themselves Labour :P
And dude! There's a lot of women out there who like geeks!
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Date: 2007-08-08 10:12 am (UTC):P
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Date: 2007-08-08 10:48 am (UTC)The thing about guys and ageing... it's all good :D
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Date: 2007-08-08 11:50 am (UTC)- I've calmed down a lot (Especially in the last 3 years)
- I'm more focused
- I'm more willing to listen before voicing my opinion
- I've learned to stifle my opinion until it's asked for
- I'm less trusting
- I'm more dedicated to things/people I feel are worth my time
- I'm way more pragmatic
- I think more in the 'long-term' than the 'right now'
just to name a few
Basically, I've done a lot of growing up.
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Date: 2007-08-08 12:06 pm (UTC)I think that where you are now is a good place... You have a great balance :)
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Date: 2007-08-08 02:50 pm (UTC)Change for the better is a good thing!
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Date: 2007-08-08 02:51 pm (UTC)Damn... I thought I was the only werewolf here!
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Date: 2007-08-08 07:51 pm (UTC)Most definitely yes I have and in so many ways.
I think the thing that stands out the most is my attitude and outlook on life. I hope that they have matured, I believe they have. I am not as angry nor do I explode as frequently. My vision tainted from my mental illness has sharpened and resulted in a strength that carries me through. By no means am I better but in five years time there has been noticeable changes. I feel okay to be me, to show my true colors. I also do not feel the need to always have a sob story to tell, my pain I carry with me daily can be silent and I can smile. It's allowed now and in a much different way then the front I used to put up. Perhaps this sounds silly, I am trying to just type and think less lately.
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Date: 2007-08-08 09:31 pm (UTC)*hug*
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Date: 2007-08-08 09:32 pm (UTC)Half can be fun :D
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Date: 2007-08-08 09:33 pm (UTC)And being in tune with your emotions is wonderful :D
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